Friday Fill-Ins

1. Rice and Beans make a quick and easy dinner.

2. The Hour I First Believed, Killing Yourself To Live, Too Fat To Fish, & Invisible Monsters are the books I'm reading right now. (And I'm getting nowhere in any of them)

3. July brings back memories of the county fair, drinking on state-lands, & sitting on the steps in front of the church downtown.

4. His love & dedication was obvious.

5. They say if you tell your dreams people will pretend to be interested, but usually they're rolling their eyes & wishing you'd be quiet.

6. I need to learn be less impulsive and to think it over.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to hanging at B&N while Doc works, tomorrow my plans include 500 Days of Summer!! and Sunday, I want to get off my ass and exercise!

Fight or Flight

I'm not going to do a scale report tomorrow.

Because I can't bring myself to type a number that I never thought I'd have to type again.

Because I've been horribly lazy. Not exercising. At all.

Eating healthy food...but grazing and picking and over indulging.

I feel like crap. Bloated and over-stuffed.

My clothes are too tight.

My face looks full again. Even my wattle is less pronounced.

I'm becoming that woman. That woman who had RNY and sailed through a couple of years of fit and healthy living only to find herself slowly gaining weight.

A pound here, a pound there.

Until holyfuckingshithowdidIgaintenpounds?

Don't try to cheer me up or offer me advice. There's nothing you can say that will help.

This is all on me. I'm the one who has to decide how she wants to feel and look.

I'm the one who has to make up my mind what's important.

I'm the one who has to do the work or fail.

Just like when I was obese. And that's what scares me.

Because I failed over and over and over back then.

Protein Snacks/Nuggets/Whatevers

I don't recall (and am far too lazy to go back and check) if I ever posted this before, but there is a "recipe" that I'm a huge fan of. It's not my recipe. I don't know the origin. But it's GOOD. And it's ADDICTIVE. So be WARNED that if you make these, you may find yourself indulging in them more than you should. Not that I have any experience with that. Cuz me? I'm the picture of self-control in all things.

So here's what you do.....

Buy a jar of Jif reduced fat peanut butter. Doesn't matter if it's chunky or smooth. Just so long as it's Jif and reduced fat.

Scoop about 1/2 to 2/3 of a cup of that stuff into a microwavable dish and put it in the micro for 40 to 45 seconds. Just enough to make it creamy and smooth...but not liquidated.

Remove from micro.

Add to the creamy and smooth peanut butter, one cup of old fashioned oats (not the quick cooks), three or four heaping scoops of any protein powder that tastes good with peanut butter, (chocolate, banana, berry, vanilla, caramel-all work well) and if you really want sweet, you can add a scoop of Splenda. (personally, I do not need the Splenda)

Now, put on some rubber gloves and mix the ingredients really well. It will be on the dry side, and you will be tempted to add something liquid...but DO NOT DO IT! All you have to do is get a small handful and work it into the shape of a marshmallow. Some people make balls...but I have much better luck with marshmallow shapes.



Form them, put them on a plate, and when you've got the whole batch shaped, immediately move them into snack baggies and put them in the fridge.




You've just made yourself a "no bake cookie" that is high protein, high flavor, and low-carb. And really, really filling.

These things are so good that Doc is now hooked on them too. She's a big fan of the chocolate-caramel-peanut butter ones. I personally am a big fan of the berry/banana/peanut butter ones because they remind me of a PBJ sandwich.

In work e-mail I have the broken down nutritional info and tomorrow, if anyone is interested, I'll post it.

Seriously? These things are freakin' awesome.

Elephant Ears and Tilt-A-Whirls

Allowed my girl to go to the county fair with her friend tonight.

She took part in a hypnosis thing.

Someone who was "under" used the opportunity to "feel her up".

But she's cool. She knew what was up.

Exit, stage left.

"Best time ever, Mom" (despite the attempts to touch her burgeoning bosom).

I know, Hon.

Because I recall my own times at the county fair when I was 14, 15, 16, 17....

I remember.

So well that I can almost smell it.

And...

I can still hear it.

Twenty-five years.

And all that's changed is me.

Friday Morning Scale Report & Fill-Ins

179.0 weight.
39.9% Body Fat
28.5 BMI
47% Water

Technically I lost weight. But I know I didn't. I shifted weight. It's that week of the month when I'm blown up like a balloon and feel ready to burst. But I had a good week. Got some exercise, ate well, didn't over indulge in anything. I feel pretty good. Except for feeling swollen, that is.

I went to see Away We Go on Sunday and absolutely loved it. It was sweet and funny and smart and perfect. If you get a chance, go. Next week my next MUST SEE movie comes out. "500 Days of Summer" starring Zooey Deschanel and my future son-in-law (I'm too old for him, but my daughters aren't!!) Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Cannot. Wait. Doc's going to that one with me. Right, Doc?

And then? Do you know what happens the following weekend? Do you? Green Day is what happens!!!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I just popped an ovary. Ouch.

Let's Fill-In The Blanks Before My Head Explodes:

1. The last thing I ate was a couple of meatballs and mozzarella cheese for dinner last night.

2. The director's cut of Tropic Thunder (for my spoiled children) is something I recently bought.

3. When it rains, it makes me feel sulky and bitchy at the same time.

4. Mr. Clean was the first person I talked to today.

5. Hugs are lovely and warm.

6. Next week when I go for the 2nd half of the Root Canal, I'm taking a Vicodin before she starts--just for the extra comfort.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a cook-out with Doc's basketball team at the coaches house, tomorrow my plans include working on The Boo's bedroom with her and Sunday, I want to take Doc to see Public Enemies!

**How come none of you fine gals ever do these fill ins? I wish you would, so that I can read them! I have you all in my Reader, so I know when you post and only Bad Mom is a regular Fill-Inner that I know of.**

Anybody Need A Mom?

Cuz I've got one that I'm willing to let go of for FREE!

My m0ther is 0ff her meds and I'm the one going crazy.

Ya'll have no idea.

One minute she's wild with excitement.

The next minute the world is ending.

And who is the one person in the universe that she shares these highs and lows with forty-seven times a day? That would be ME.

This has been going on for almost two weeks now.

She's a classic example of how fucked up our health care system is.

Works full time. Has insurance for doctor's visits, but not for RX's. Since her RX's are totally fucking ridiculously overpriced, she cannot pay for them out of pocket....she is off her meds. And I'm suffering!

I swear, if I could have-I would have paid for the drugs myself.

But I couldn't. Because the drugs are totally fucking ridiculously overpriced!

After some inquiry we found out that she qualifies for a "free" program at a local h0spital.

She sees the D0c there tomorrow aftern00n.

Hopefully they will fill her RX's for free as well.

And then maybe my sanity will be somewhat restored.

And if she doesn't? I may tie her to a tree and leave her for dead.

(not really)

(but the idea is tempting)

Palin's Resignation Upsets Hitler

There are a few variations of this parody floating around. This one is my favorite by far. Please to enjoy:

Hitler Finds Out Sarah Palin Resigns - watch more funny videos

Sunday And The Sun Is Shining

It's gorgeous here today and I haven't been outside yet. Too busy cleaning. I've decided that the other three people in this house suffer from sort of vacuum phobia. It's the only explanation as to why they won't step within five feet of the cleaner.

Am leaving in about an hour to go see "Away We Go" with Jenn. So excited for this movie. I hope I love it as much as I expect to. Hope Jenn likes it too!

Didn't make it to Public Enemies with Doc yet, but there's lots of time. She starts her internship tonight, working from 8 to 10. I think while she's there, I'll go for a good long walk. I need it. My back still hurts and my leg muscles are screeching every time I take a step. Walking will help stretch things out. Plus, I ate a good amount of food yesterday and drank two or three beers. Lots of bad carbs. Have to pay the piper.

Back to work tomorrow. Ben will be there, which means my day will be a little more stressful than usual. But after that he should be gone all week. I like Ben a lot, but he's quite the task master and he's hyper critical of my work. I tend to feel like I'm walking on eggshells when he's in the office. He doesn't do it on purpose, and he's truly a nice guy and one of the best people I've ever worked for...he just makes me feel tense and self-conscious.

Okay, off to get more done before meeting Jenn.

Head? Meet Lawnmower.

Oh yeah. I almost forgot. My hair is way, way, way too f'ing short. I look ridiculous. Dammit.

OUCH!

Remember how I said Boo got me out of bed to go walk/run with her yesterday?

The moment I started jogging I felt something unpleasant in my lower back.

Today, it still hurts.

Grrrrrr.....

Friday Morning Scale Report & Fill-Ins

179.8 and I deserve every ounce of it. I was terrible all week. Ate too much, too often. Didn't exercise except for some walking on Monday night. Slug, slug, slug. In my defense, it's rained every goddamn day for a week and the rain makes me feel like crap and prevents me from going outside to walk.

My darling Boo got me out of bed this morning and took me for a good walk. So I started the day out right. No work today, so I won't be sitting on my ass snacking my way through nine hours of slow-dragging time.

Getting my hair cut today, going grocery shopping, cleaning house, packing some more crap up to get rid of, and just generally hoping to get things accomplished while being paid by my employer to do it! Woot!

Let's Fill-Those Babies In:





And...here we go!

1. When I heard that Micheal Jackson died I was not at all surprised, nor did I feel anything.

2. Laughter is the best medicine. (it's impossible to laugh & feel bad at the same time)

3. It's late, but the bill always gets paid.

4. I will remember my Grandma's voice and face always.

5. My eyes have seen things that I wish they hadn't.

6. There are many things that I feel strongly.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to possibly taking Doc to see Public Enemies, tomorrow my plans include attending the Clean Family Reunion and Sunday, I want to go see Away We Go with Jenn!

He's The Dude, Playin' The Dude, Disguised As Another Dude

My daughters are obsessed with "Tropic Thunder". They've watched it at least forty times and are watching it right this very moment.

Every time they watch it and I am in the room? All I can focus on is Robert Downey Jr. and how much I would like to lick him.

Big Goofy Grin

Meet Zoila. (Zoy-lah), my new Hyund@i Sante-Fe. Isn't she pretty! I luvs her.

(click on the photo if you'd like to see a larger image)

Vrooom!

I pick up my new vehicle after work tonight. Can hardly wait.

Mr. Clean has reservations, but is going along. His worry is that I'm going into something bigger that will cost more in gas and maintenance. He thinks I should stay in a small economy car, but I would like at least one vehicle in our family that the four of us can actually go somewhere in and still have room for things like luggage and/or groceries, etc. He drives a little truck. I've been in the Honda forever. It's time we bite the bullet and get something just a tad bigger.

I'll post a photo and announce her name tonight. Yes, she has a name. Stop laughing.